You realize after you go away to college that things are never going to be the same. Sure you have your friends in high school and you see them when you go back for summer. But it is just different. Those friends have made new friends. You have made new friends. You have to decide if you are still the same person you used to be before college. If you can still fit in each others lives. It is a hard process that will take some time.
I miss my friends in Savannah. I really do. But I also realized something today. I am not the only one that had to leave Savannah. All my other college friends went back home too. I have this feeling that I left my friends behind in Savannah...but they really aren't there. The memory of them is there. But they physically are not. If I were to go back to Savannah to visit the one or two friends that stayed for summer session...it would be different.
My life is on hold until September 15.
I cannot make new friends here in Franklin...theres no point. Three months is all I have. It takes at least that long to develop a good relationship with someone.
I cannot relate to my friends like I used to in high school. They all went to the same college practically. They kept in contact with each other. I chose to go 500 miles away to college...and in doing so...i severed practically all ties with my high school friends.
I feel like I am just wasting these 3 months of my life on nothing. There are no projects to work on, no films to create, no friends to hang out with, no work really (if 15 hours a week counts). There is no reason for me to be in Savannah for these 3 months, and no reason for me to be in Franklin either. Where do I belong within these three months then?
Summers used to be so fun. Now they are a drag.
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This is the time when you write. You put down on paper the memories of times past, so sometime in the future you can mine them like gold. Better now, when you have the touchstones of those said memories actually available and the memories are not too far past ripe. This may be the last time you have 3 months of uninterrupted time to do whatever you want, with no other obligations...
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